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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 15:58:24 GMT

Hey there yall... Sorry its been so long since I updated. I don't have the net at home so I have to go up to the library and I haven't had time. Right now I'm at my friend Kari's house... I hope everyone is enjoying their summers...

Here are the updates on me:

Me and Jared are awesome. My mom is okay with it. Just celebrated our one month anniversary!

MPSA was fun. I learned alot.

Pretty much I work everyday that I am actually in town. I've been really busy.

I get my braces taken off today! I'm super stoked! I've had them on for two and a half years!

Sorry I don't have time to comments everybody back, but I will soon!

I love yall!

I gotta go...

TTFN,
Ashley

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 17:29:18 GMT

Hey yall! I come home tomorrow, and I am so excited. My step-dad is still uber-ticked at me though about the cigg box (which they don't believe me about) and so he said I am not going to be able to drive my car for a while. (Which means walking to work and summer school! Ugh!) The stupid thing has a flat anyways. Which means I have to go buy a freakin' new tire. Double-ugh!

And I really hope my mom will see my side about this whole Jared thing. I am falling. I don't know, but I'll talk to her tomorrow on the drive back from the airport. Pray for me!

Well, I gotta go! I hope everyone has a good day!

TTFN,
Ashley

Friday, June 09, 2006

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 14:59:28 GMT

I go home in just two days! Yippie!

Lets see, whats new? Umm, new layout! No, I didn't make it, a friend from BR.net did. I really like it! What do you think?

So Jared is still awesome. There was a situation that unnerved me a bit but I'm feeling better about it. I am still uber-nervous about talking to my mom. I've been praying and that makes me less nervous. I am pretty sure Jared being in my life is a good thing and that God put him there so maybe it'll all be good...

I am going to cut my bangs.Right now, my bangs are like two and half inches longer than the rest of my hair, so I think I'm going to even it up, then grow it out a bit for my senior pictures. I can't wait to get them taken!!!

I am pretty much just excited to be returning home soon. I miss Missouri and the people in it bunches. I kinda sucks that I have to leave agaim so quick for the Missouri Public Speaking Academy, but whatever.

TTFN,
Ashley

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 16:02:21 GMT

This would be the third time I've typed this entry... Stupid PC!

Hey yall... I've been hanging out on Blogring.net all day. That site is effing addictive. But I took a short break... I'm eating beans and weiners. Best thing ever. I love food. Last night after my brothers baseball game, he went to Jib Jab's hot dog shoope. It like incrediable, they just sell hot dogs. And they are SO good! So yeah, and tonight we are going to Mikeee's and they have like amazingly yummy wings. I am stoked...

FIVE DAYS! I get to come home and see everyone (especially Jared!) in just five days! I can't wait... Although, I am uber-nervous about my convo with my mom. Because, you know, from the surface, this whole me and Jared thing does kind of look bad but really, its not. I mean, we both care about eachother, there is nothing illegal happening (or going to happen!) and we just click, ya know... If she just meets him, thats be good. Because once she meets him, she will love him. But still, my stomache aches everytime I think about it!

On another note, what is with all of this 6-6-06 stuff. I mean, people need to quite freaking out. Its pretty lame...

Anyways, I hope everyone who reads this has a great day!

~Ashley

Monday, June 05, 2006

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 13:27:22 GMT

Hey yall... I just woke up. My father pissed me off last night. He was saying hat everytime he walks into the room I minimize the screen and he is saying that I am sneaking around... Eff that, I just have like 3-5 browser windows open at one time and am constantly shuffling between them. He is... well, insert rude word here.

I go home is six days. Than I can reclaim my life. I miss work so much. You'd think that as a Taco Bell employee I'd hate my job and usually, I do but being away from it mkes me miss it. As much as the people there gossip and stuff. you'd think that I'd hate them. But I don't. I can't wait to begin getting ready for Rachel's wedding. (I'm a bridesmaid!) Again, Bailey's wedding! (again, bridesmaid!) And I get to start hanging out with my friends again. I miss my friends. I won't list them because I am always scared I'll leave someone out but I just can't wait. I get to start doing FFA stuff again.My ag teacher is like my father and I haven't seen him in almost two weeks! I miss him bunches!

I miss my brother and sister loads! They are just so cute and they always make me happy!

Anyways, I'm going to go take a shower. Leave me comments! It really does brighten my day!

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 00:35:34 GMT

Hey there anyone who reads this...

I just got back from Mass for my brothers graduation. (He goes to a Catholic school and, no, I am not Catholic, not that there is anything wrong with that.)

Ohio has been worse. I miss everyone so much. I miss Jared like crazy... He is so sweet.

A situation with my mom exists. As many know, Jared and I like eachother. I have liked Hared for, like, ever. And my mom knows and we will be discussing it on the way back from the airpost on June 11th. I am very nervous. This could either be really good or really bad...

Anyways, Ohio is okay. My father is annoying and I am going to miss my brothers like crazy. I miss Billy a great deal. But I go home in just eleven days, so its all good!

Check out my PhotoBlog if you haven't yet and leave comments on it.

Love,
Ashley
xoxo

p.s. To help me map my personality awareness, please go to this site and just pick like five or six adjectives that you think describe me. It takes like ten seconds and its really helpful. Thanks!

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Thu, 25 May 2006 15:57:09 GMT

Hey yall...

I am in Ohio now. I arrived last night after a three hour delay, due to the weather in Chicago. That sucked. I was on a plane for over 5 hours straight!

I miss Jared so much. It has only been one day and I miss him! And I miss everyone else at Taco Bell (plus Nick!) and most of the people in FFA... and also Beth, Erika and J Bird.

Ohio is not exactly my favorite place to be. I am also pretty frickin' pissed at my dad. You see, I haven't seen Billy (my twin brother) since Christmas. And my dad won't take me to see him while I am up here. FYI, I won't be coming back to Ohio for a long while and since my brother is in the JobCore, that means I won't be seeing my twin brother for years. He may stay in there until he is 24 and thats seven years. Could you imagine not seeing you twin brother with whom you share every childhood memory for seven whole years. Exactly. I am pissed. Grrr...

And to top it all off, my step-dad turned my cell phone off. You see he was cleaning out my car and in the glove box he found an empty cigeratte box. Now, first off, I quit smoking (I heard its bad for you!) and secondly, I had no idea that box was even in there. So I don't even know if it was mine. But that means no connection with Jared (or Nick or J Dil or anyone else !) for another 19 days. Actually, I have a calling card but it only has like two hundred minutes left to last me two weeks... I could die! But, I am hoping my step-dad will believe me about the box and turn it back on. (I am telling the truth! I did quit! I no longer smoke!) High hopes, I guess...

I am going to go fix myself something to eat now, because I am hungry...

xoxo,
Ashley

p.s. comments make me feel better!

p.s.s. I added pictures and would love feedback. They are here !!!

Monday, May 15, 2006

Mon, 15 May 2006 18:08:39 GMT

This weekend was okay. I worked 5pm til 2am on Friday, went to the zoo with a realy awesome gguy that I know during the day on Saturday, then worked 5pm til 4:20am, then slept in on Sunday before studying fo my Offset Press Operation Final, which I just took and did okay on.

Here's whats on my mind:

Have you ever seen that special someone after a long day and wished that they would just hold you?

Have you ever looked at them and prayed that one day, they see in you what you see in them?

Have you ever recieved a hug and wished it could last longer?

Have you ever brushed their hand when you wanted to hold it?

Have you ever wished for something and to tell yourself that by doing so, you are setting yourself up for disappointment? But on the other hand, you can't just forget, because wishing for the impossible may be better than giving up. I think its better to dream big then not dream at all.

I love life. Simple yet complex. Fun yet boring. Easy yet dificult. Worth every minute of it.

In the end, why give up EVER, because you never know what tomarrow could bring...?...

Friday, May 12, 2006

Fri, 12 May 2006 15:41:57 GMT

Most girls say they want a fairytale,
Butyou taught me that it`s not really what I want.
I want someone who will make fun of me
And laugh at my jokes even if they aren`t funny.
Someone that wrestles with me
And doesn't let me win just `cause I`m a girl.
Yeah.. riding off into the sunset on a white horse would be nice...
But playing thumb-war with you sounds so much better.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Tue, 09 May 2006 16:50:59 GMT

So apparently some things mentioned in my previous Blog were thought to be interesting by a couple of guys. Lol. They crack me up. BTW, Jared left me with so many bruises. No, he isn't mean or anything, it was all in good fun. I do however, like to show them off because it cracks me up. Good times, good times.

Me and Joe are dating. Again, its not really going anywhere. Not really seeing the point. I mean, he is fun and all but its not like I am planning a future with him. I'm really just not eeing the whole things working out. but he graduates on Thursday so thats kind of cool.

Been staying busy, as usual. OMG, my summer schedule is insane. Summer is supposed to be a time where you relax, hang out around the pool and drink lemonade and hang out with your friends, right? Well, mine is going to be packed. I have The Leadership Adventure, Chapter Officer Training (to plan and attend), Chapter Officer Retreat, Area Officer Institute, Area Officer Meetings, spen ding a weekend in Sedelia for work at the State Fair, I have to work at OEF, plus I am taking geometry in summer school and I am prolly going to start working more hours at Taco Bell. In addition, I need to slip in a couple weeks to go see my father. Overal, I'd say it looks like a pretty busy summer.

The semester is almost over. I have my OTC finals next Monday and Tuesday, then the next week I have my high school finals, then I'm FREE. Until summer school. Lol.

On another note,
Have you ever liked someone and thought to yourself: I don't want to anymore; whats the point? And Nick, you will not be getting details on this and even though I am sure you will try, my lips are sealed.

Anyways, I have to make a sign for the restraunt up here at OTC so ta-ta for now!!!

xoxo,
Ashley